Saturday, October 13, 2012

Come What MAY

Most days, now, I go about my daily life thinking of baby and work and homes and friends and whathaveyou. But at least once a day, I am astounded. At least once a day I pray to God, "Thank you so much for this little baby. Please let this baby grow healthy and strong. Please keep special watch over this baby, Lord."

While these are words I'm sure many people state in prayers while pregnant, I find that pregnancy after miscarriage is a funny (but not so funny) thing. Each day I wonder. As I type this I am 9 weeks 2 days pregnant and I am looking forward to that 12 week ultrasound with a fiery passion (technically only a 11w1d ultrasound). I yearn for the next few weeks to fly right by. Since you are reading this, apparently the ultrasound went well (Praise God!). Our first ultrasound of this pregnancy was amazing. As many of you know, my first ever ultrasound in May was the worst day of my life. Therefore, this time around I was as nervous as nervous gets. The difference was this special baby had a rapid, splendid heartbeat. Remembering that heartbeat flickering on the screen brings a smile to my face.

While I can't help but be a ball of nerves at times, I also have great hope. This baby is thriving inside my belly due to love and prayer. There were no hormones, medications, or ovulation tests. I'm finding it hard to describe just how blessed I feel knowing God has given us hope. Much can go wrong with pregnancy and childbirth, but for now, I'm focusing on the good. A new life has been created! This baby is wanted so badly I almost wish the next 30 or so weeks would hurry up and be over so I can meet our little one. Our prayers have been answered and I'll continue to pray to see that this little baby continues to grow into a healthy and strong child.

**Special side note: A big THANK YOU is owed to all of you who have kept Phillip and I in your prayers throughout the past several months. So many people came out of the woodwork offering up prayers and support. It has truly blown me away and left me feeling beyond blessed. We've experienced so much up and down and I firmly believe that the thoughts and prayers of all of you have kept us strong and afloat. Thank you. Bless you.


  1. My first ultrasound was also the worst of my life; it's enough to make you fearful of them indefinitely. I am 32 weeks pregnant after a loss, so this post struck a chord with me. You really sum up the experience aptly.

  2. Alyssa, first of all congratulations! I'm very excited for you! I know FULL well your fear and anxiety as I have been there unfortunately multiple times. I didn't realize you had a miscarriage and am so sorry. I actually just read your blog from back then. I know it's not a subject most people enjoy talking about. We will never understand why those things happen but one thing I have learned through each of my losses is that God is still good and He still loves us. Dave and I long for that special blessing someday and have high hopes that it will happen.

    You and your precious little one will definitely be in our prayers!


  3. To quote Melanie Hamilton Wilkes from Gone With the Wind, "The happiest days are when babies come." Congratulations to you both and that precious little baby. Praying for all of you. ~ pam and michael

  4. Oh wow, what a cute was to share such wonderful news! Made all the more special no doubt, by your loss. Big congratulations - so much love just around the corner! Kellie xx